numbers

Had a conversation with one of my ex bf just now and we were talking about relationship and stuff, and how perasan he is on how good a lover he was to me and all that kinda thing...

Me:
none of my relationship involves u


Ex:
got, your fifth relationship involves me


Me:
well, other than that obviously....
1st, 2nd, 3rd, 4th, 6th, 7th, 8th......none!


Ex:
hahaha..u got so many...lil bit also not like me loyal to one


Me:
what makes u think that having many ex bf means i am not loyal?

So, what makes you think that having lots of bf or ex signifies that you are or won't be a good bf??? Number doesnt matter, its the process that is!

for the record, i got 8 official ex-es up-to-date..

both the same

It sucks to know that you're torn between two lover, when both of them are equally good... As some may not know, i'm stuck between two guys that i really love, and really want to be with... call me stubborn, selfish, idiot, moron, player or whatsoever it is, but i feel the same for both of them...

One of them is a student in Malaysia at my age, which i've never met before, but we've developed this very special feeling towards one another.... The feeling has been there for quite awhile, and i've started a relationship with him (a distance one) for almost 3 months... I know someone out there may think that i am childish to have such feeling, but what i feel is true...

The other guy has been with me for almost 2 years, and he's slightly older than me... Its not that i don't love him, but i've just developed a new feeling for the other guy at my age... I do know that its a stupid option wanting to be with both of them, but that is what i've opted for...

MYOB

I just spoke to one of my ex (to be exact, my 5th) and he told me about the rumours he heard about me back in Malaysia.... it just somehow amazes me how far and how long a nonsensical rumour can go on by feeding on people's curiousity and their pat por-ness....

well, he asked about a scandal rumour that involved me and another guy (obviously its a guy, duh!) when i was in KL, and the so called affair we had... i'm not going to comment anything about that it, and all i got to say is that you are no one to judge me on what i do, or what i've done... even if you think you are someone to judge me because of the past relationship we had, i am very much disappointed in you as i think you do not know me as well as you did (i hope you did) and worst of all, look and judge me just like everyone out there....

There is no point of me going out defending and telling everyone how untrue that rumour is, as it will only raise up even more curiousity and question... Its up to you to judge me, but not for you to comment...

music me away

i've always wished that i can play the piano or guitar... i donno why, but i think that both the instruments, especially the piano, is just pure romantic and sexy... believe it or not, i used to have a crush on a guy because he was able to play the piano... he's not some hot hunky nor cute guy, but he was able to play the piano... He played me a few songs, and i was purely touched by it... i can't explain it, but its just the feeling i have when one plays the piano or even a guitar...

If a guy can ever play a piano well enough, i will so fall in love with him just because of that... I find guys who can play musical instruments to be really romantic... He can just take my breath away by sitting down and play me a good melody or song... i can spend my whole day watching and listening him playing that instrument...

come to think of it, it has been quite a while since anyone played me anything... I love going to some cafe with live singing like Halo Cafe... I can spend my whole night, watching that someone there playing that guitar without even uttering a word...

One of my ex used to attend piano class just to play me Canon and a few more songs... aaaaahh...........

THEY'RE HERE!

HOLLY COW!!!!!!!!!!!!!

S.H.E. IS IN MALAYSIA TONIGHT FOR THEIR ANNUAL CONCERT!!!!!!!!!!! SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!

well, maybe i am less chinesey than i am, but I adore those 3 Taiwanese girl's singing... and i think that they are freaking cute... its like their 4th concert in Malaysia or so, but i've never got the chance to attend it either because i was busy, or financially weak.... I've been a fan of theirs since early secondary school, and more when i was with my Sarawakian ex... I LOVE SHE!!!!!

i so wanna go watch their concert now!!!! shit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! please please please come to Brisbane... please please please.........!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

from left to right, Hebe, Ella, Selina...

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Will you?

If I am rich with extra time to spend, I would buy / get / do

- An SLR Camera
- Nice clothing
- Designer's glasses + shades
- Lots of shoes
- Beautiful rings
- A nice arm band tattoo
- A piercing on my ear
- A Nissan Fair Lady
- Fly a light aircraft around Malaysia
- Iphone
- Watches
- Cool caps
- Perfumes
- Weekend bags
- Travel to Japan

and that is only IF i am rich with lots of time to kill... However, both of them doesn't seems to come together... I am only having the extra time, but not the extra money..

Sydney!

I am planning to go Sydney during the Easter Holidays!!  any taker????

well, i'll be getting a few days off during Easter break, and due to that, i've decided to hit Sydney for the first time and to just relax and chill out.... this can be a backpacking trip if we're tight on budget, but i think that it'll still be great fun... buzz me people if you are interested!

what has it got to do with you?

what the hell is wrong with people who has got an issue with the gays?!

its not like i will fall for them or go fuck them when they are sleeping... some of my batchmates has somehow got to know that i am a gay and they've been targetting on me whenever we talk about a relationship and stuff like that...

I've always got the urge to come out to them and just clear whatever doubt they have and rest the case once and for all, but i just have no idea how to, and what will the consequences be.... I am gay and so what?!

final 3

the last 3 'about me'   *_*

21. I'm a coffee addict and i must have at least a cup of coffee a day... I love fruit juices too, but prefer having them as fruits than in the liquid form... I like my coffee with milk, and a big fan of starbucks.. don't ask me to drink all those syrup kinda thing in pasar malam as i think that they're just pupre sugar with colouring... I don't mind fresh fruit juices, but not those bottled...

22. Although i've been gay since like, i donno, years, but not much people know about it.. My parents kinda know about it few years ago when i ran away from home, but i think that they thought i've turned straight now... A few ex-school and college mates of mine know about my sexuality, but i don't think that it matter to them... Its just my sexual preference, and it has got nothing to do with them... its not like i discriminate straight guys right?!

23. finally Although i've gained my flying licences, i've yet to got my licence to drive a car in Malaysia (and everywhere else)... Call this weird, but i really didnt have the time to go for the course and everything as my birthday is at the end of the year, which means that i'm usually busy at then for my holidays, or for work...

ngek ngek.... now takashi, u know me better don't u?? and everyone else.. hahaa...

the ME for YOU

anyway, yea.... i've yet to complete the tagging thing and i am a little lazy to finish it up... but since takashi gave me such a big task and honoured me with it, i will do my best today...

continued :

12. My first phone was a Nokia 3310 which my late grandpa gave me... as i was about 12 years old at then, i was having to share the phone with my mom and sister and at then, a standard 6 boy having a mobile phone was like a big thing... after that i opted for a stupid LG (Look Great but good for nothing phone) after having to help my dad out at work during the end of the year... It was a flip phone, and it went kaput about 2 years after that... i have a few more phones after that, but currently i am using a Nokia E63, Sony Ericson K710 (i think) and 1 more cheap Nokia phone... 2 are Australian Numbers, and the other 1 is my original Malaysian number, just in case that i've got anyone looking for me in Malaysia

13. I love dogs to cats as cats are just pure ignorant animal... I used to have a dog by the name of Mickey given by my aunt but he died in a car accident... my mom was sort of the murderer as she set the dog free for a walk outside my house when a car came at the corner and ran through that poor thing... after that i had a stupid random cat from nowhere which then disappeared after 2 nights... I didnt even have the time to get a name for he (i think its a he) before he just disappear from the surface of the earth...

14. I've got quite a number of nicknames in the internet... I first ventured into the cyber world at the age of 15 or so when my parents got me a broadband from Streamyx.. i first adopted the name of KEN as i find it to be cool from a game i used to play (King of Fighter) when i was young... after that, i decided to change it to something else because some horrible stuff happened to me (refer to point 15)

15. My most memorable (bad) experience that i've been through is running away from home... Yeap, at the age of 15 after completing my PMR, the naive me decided to leave home to my bf (currently ex) in Kuching.. Well, it was a huge thing and create lots of problem for everyone... I was tricked to stay with him and believing whatever that bastard guy told me... well, i rarely tell anyone about it, so i am not planning to elaborate more on it here in the public...

16. I've puffed several times but not exactly finishing a stick.. Was exposed to shiisha 3 weeks ago with some of my batchmates in aus and went tipsy for the whole night... i've got nothing against or for it but am not going for it again any time soon... I'm quite bad at alcohol too, and got drunk several times... the worst drinking experience i've got was the night i met K when he was working at a pub as a manager... i ended up being driven home by a friend of mine and waking up half naked without knowing what happened in between that...

17. Black is easily found in my closet (beat that takashi!) as its the easiest to match with any colour... i got a pink shirt from my God brother 2 years ago from philosophy, but now the shirt has went kaput.. i don't really fancy any colour, but i am more to the designs of it... Maybe less of bright florescent clothing because i am tan?

18. Believe it or not, i was a cheerleader back in college, and also was a band member playing the saxophone back in secondary school... They're so related yet different, but i was very involved with both of them, one after another... I was one of the top saxophonist in my school, playing solo in the Penang Symphony Band Competition back in 2004 and winning a silver medal.. In college, i then joined the Cheerleading competition organised by myself, and my team manage to became the 1st runner up...

19. I love dressing up and being presentable at most time when i am outside with my friends.. People call me vain, but i just address myself as metrosexual.. Inner beauty is equally important, but that is up to the rest of the world to find out about myself... Shopping is what i like doing, but i do feel guilty after buying whatever it is that i don't really need... I fancy glasses and shades, and somehow, i think that guys with glasses are freaking cute...

20. Just like what the number signify, i am 20 this year and i am still discovering more about myself... I love socialising through the net as well as in the real world, and treats everyone equally disregarding their sexuality.. I fancy cute guys and girls, but don't really discriminate those who are less fortunate.. haha...