life without K & T

class has been 'colder' than usual as people start to talk about my sexuality and stuff like that... for those who has gone through this stage(and survived it), i would like to give u a big kiss hug and salute you for being this strong... it sucks to know that people are talking at your back pointing fingers at you and calling you a freak although you did nothing wrong but just choose to like someone of the same gender... its not like i like anyone of them (i swear i dont!) and wanted to kiss or even *#@& them but its just my choice in my life to like someone who is a guy... why is it that most people i know always think that being gay is disgusting and an act of indecency??

well, i basically have no one to talk to or even to share my feelings here in Australia and it hurts to know that people you use to call 'friends' is taking a step away from yourself...

anyway, on a happier note, i am at least glad to know that i have my lovers back in Malaysia.. yeap... its true that i have fallen in love and showing affection towards 2 people at the same time but that doesnt actually mean that i am a slut or whatsoever... What I have for them is just the feeling of loving and wanting them to be protected and happy... its not like i have sex with both of them and i am flirtatious.. i swear to God that i put both of them at the same position in my heart and no other plu is even compatible to them.. I will call one of them as K and the other one as T...

K is actually my lover since 2 years ago and we are going happily together... then not too long ago, i started to develop feelings towards T after getting to know him online through a friend.. although i've never met T, there's just this urge of me to keep him protected from any harm that our plu society that might put on him... I am not saying that i am so sacred and angellic but the least is that i want him to live a happy live... and yes, myself and T are having an online relationship currently and i don mind calling him everyday to just talk and listen to him...

Personally, being in a relationship doesnt mean to have sex and kiss or whatsoever; but its to treasure that someone and wanting him to be happy and safe all the time... no doubt I have raging hormones and wanks, I've never expected myself to meet T and the first thing to do is to have kiss and have sex... a hug is more than enough for me IF i am given a chance to see him and nothing more that i am asking...

ok.... so much with talking about T... I got to know K 2 years back from my ex and yea, we've been together since then... I do love him very much and K has been a great lover to me... maybe you will say that i am a jerk that is misusing K and flirts around but I do love K just as before and he is as well my lover... I've never intended or even want to break up with him after i get to know T because K has become a part of my life...

and yes... I LOVE K AND T VERY MUCH!!