maybe i am not prepared for all these that i am having now... being in a relationship with K and trying to keep another with T is really stressful... was chatting with T yesterday night and he uttered that I am obsessed with him and he requested me not to 'stalk' on him... i donno... maybe he meant it jokingly but i really felt a knife piercing my heart... for whatever that i am doing now, i don mean to stalk on him or even trying to be possesive but all i want is just to care more for him and to understand what is going on in his daily life... i don't know how to be caring but not 'possesive'...
On the other hand, K has been quite down lately due to poor financial activity and upcoming CNY which will cost him more money... i donno what can i do for him to feel better la... i miss K very much also...
Subconciously, I told someone off not to "stalk" me too much.. I mean it in a good way which I mean I need some space to breathe and I am attached..
ReplyDeleteSo yea, I understand how T feels right now, but then, really, obsessed? I dont know... I only have people obsess in me... seldom the other way round...
well... i donno.... i notice one thing too... if i don text or call him, he will just never text me... i donno...
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