troubled, again

I am just feeling emo now just like pluboy.. Well, i don't know what happened to him but likewise, i am troubled due to the relationshipS i am having currently.. Maybe its the music i am listening to now but I feel so torn apart between both of them..

There's nothing I have got to say about my relationship with K as we're already together for almost 2 years now and we're already in the so called 'lou fu lou chai' (old husband and wife) status... There were obviously arguments and believe it or not, we've even fought physically for once due to some very very very huge stuff (at least this shows that we don sit around slapping each other like bitches but we do it the mens way!)..

anyway, T is the only one i am very worried of... I am not saying that he is incapable of taking care of himself but to me, he's just a little innocent naive boy (although we're at the same age) to our community... He's really really sweet and unaware of what other people's intention towards him... I am not saying that i am a saint or anything but I swear to God, i've never intended to harm him in any single way... I know you readers will be saying that I am already doing it to him now by cheating on him but I am really really worried of him being in our society.. I am just doing my best to protect him from the hooligans out there and again i swear that i've never ever thought of having sex or whatsoever with him.. What i feel for him is just love and no other intentions other than that.. If you are to put me and him in a room in a sober condition, I will never do anything to him other than just a pure cuddle...

I had quite a long conversation with T 2 nights ago and i swear, it was the most comforting conversation i've had with anyone in the year of 2010.. I am really in deep fear of what the future may bring for me and T.. I don't want him to be heart broken one day to know that i am already attached with someone.. I love him true heartedly and nothing else that I ask for other than him...

i am being very emo now... sorry...